Counting my blessings again.

This is another post about counting your blessings. Another post because of how incredible your life can get once you start counting.

I spoke to three of my bestestest friends today. 3 different people, different in every way imaginable. They are by themselves a whole variety. All three of them spoke some heavy things, and some wonderful light hearted things. All 3 of them had an incredible impact on me today. And it is the same 3 people who are very brave, have taken their own decisions and have proudly borne their own unique battle scars. Whats brilliant is they are wonderful people rotating on their own respective axises and are continuously contributing to make this world a better place. I’m so incredibly blessed to have these 3 in my life ! They give me hope, when there seems to be none. They make me laugh when I’m damn low. They make me realize and see whats hidden between the lines. Overall they make me a better person.

I enjoyed knowing how much I’ve got.

You just might too.

The desert and all good things.

Listening to Edward Maya’s ‘This is my life’ attempting to draw Louvre. I really love the flow of this song. Its got a very middle eastern feel to it. Reminds me of home. Cannot wait to go back once again, perhaps live there for a few years trying to relive my past, my childhood, my teenage life, my memories while creating new ones. I miss the middle east. I miss the sand. I miss the palm trees. I miss the surprise on all of our faces when it rains. I miss the sand storms, the fog during the shift in seasons. I miss the smell of the creek. I miss the ocean. I miss the salty scent that envelopes the beaches. The lovely winter skies with high flying clouds, their strange and unique patterns. Their incredible colors as the sun sets and the winds blows stronger. I miss the Arabic perfumes lingering behind the Arab women who used to pass me by. I miss the glamor, the grandeur of the malls. The smell of Arabic Oud.The cold temperatures of the malls on insanely hot summer mornings. The sound of the fountains. I miss the food, the Indians – Arab-Western-Indians. Confused Indians who are a fusion. Indians who will never truly relate to so many things common in India once they have been brought up there. We are a clan. Unintended though, no jokes. I have many times come across a middle eastern Indian who is still trying to figure out what he could call himself/herself. It influences you in strange ways. And an Indian from the middle east is very recognizable. No shit. These people stick out like neon colored pigments in a crowd. Atleast to another who grew up there too.

I miss it. Everything. The desert. I never thought I’d miss the desert. But I really, really do. The highways always give a golden view of the huge expanses of the desert stretching out endlessly on both sides of the smooth roads. The dates. I miss Bateel. Gorgeously tasty.

Now all this is just a part of my memories. I can only relive them in my head. Its still fresh. What I really hope is that it remains fresh forever. Because who knows if life will make me go elsewhere instead of going back.

Oats for the fatty.

So all this while people tell you in articles that chocolate is good for the heart blah blah blah, NOW I read in a newspaper article that chocolate increases the level of a particular hormone that starts storing fat. How wonderful. Just when I thought it was permanently understood that chocolate just has no bad sides to its personality, it comes up and slaps me in my face.

Meh.

My jeans don’t fit. Which really really sucks. I like my jeans. They are all I have. (totally jk)

But still.

Oats for the fatty. Oats all way. Eeeuurgh. I have to start walking. I think even my brain weighs more 😐

I know this is particularly a short blog post. I’m sorry, but my hunger is telling me to move to better grazing grounds. Peace out.

Happy, happy New Year (:

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It is the 1st of January of the year 2013. The year 2012, THE year; dreaded towards the end with all the predictions and fellow preppers’ warnings, the rising crime as well as the insensitivity of people reaching new highs; 2012 was a quite a roller coaster and has managed to pass us by. What does say about time ? It passes. The best and worst always pass us by. What remains is our memories of them as well as lessons and nothing else. Perhaps new people gained and lost along the way.

2012 has ended. One year of our lives has left us. I’m still trying to grip reality of 2013 dawning on me. I will have to date each chapter I study henceforth with ’13. I know I will end up writing ’12 for a few more months  before I finally manage to write ’13 without corrections. And before you know it, 2014 will stare us in the eye. But thats’ that. Time and tide wait for none.

So as I still try to digest that its the year 2013, I hope with all my heart that I’m braver this year. I pray that everyone is too. I pray that everyone experiences more happiness than 2012 gave us, more love, more courage, clear decisiveness, and more hope.

Also, on a totally different note, rather a musical one; all you violin enthusiasts do check out Lindsey Stirling’s song titled Celtic Carol. Its marvelous.

We have but a few years at hand to do what ever we want to, to live consequences of all that we did as well. I hope all of us mostly do good, and life affirming things this year so we can reap the benefits later when its time. I wish each one of you reading; a wonderful, happy, exciting and fulfilling new year. Have a great year ahead you guys.

Peace and love as always.

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Day 2 – Protests for a better India, a safer India

This entry is dedicated to our gutless Prime minister, Mr Manmohan GoodForNothing Singh, and all the shameless ministers who govern India. Day 2 of protests in the whole of India has still not woken our PM from his comfortable nap to come out and speak to the nation he supposedly rules. Shame on him. We as voters need to wake up and vote for people who have the credentials, and the heart and vision to rule India to make it better. Not an 82 year old man who is swimming in benefits derived from every tax payer’s money. Lets take a look at other countries who have more to teach us on how to choose a leader. Please jago India. Delhi has seen more lathi charge, tear gas shells and water cannons early this morning. What does that speak about our government, our so called leaders ? They only know the brute language of animals. That is why none, I repeat NONE of the political leaders have come out with clear hearts and best of intentions to comfort the people of India who have had enough. Salman Khurshid, the Cabinet Minister of the Ministry of External affairs very insensitively gave a statement to the people of India : “Dont hold street trials”. These are the people WE have elected to sit in the seat of power and ruin our country.

60+ years have passed after we attained Independence. But women are still caged. Is this real independence ? Is this freedom ? The protestors out there are treated like dogs and shooed away with medieval methods, instead of being treated like respectable citizens of India given a ear to hear out their pleas. We aren’t given a platform to voices our opinions. Doesn’t this PROVE that our current government isn’t to rule us ?

Just now I got news of one video journalist being SHOT by bullets by a police officer who acted out against a couple of protestors who were about to torch a vehicle, protesting for the Manipuri actress who was recently molested in Mumbai. So in this country a vehicle is worth more than a person’s life. Its not a bloody encounter, to shoot a criminal down while chasing him. These are protestors, people of India who have had enough. And this innocent man was SHOT.

Jago India. Jago. Choose leaders not for their family name, not for their party, not for their skin. Choose one leader for their real solid will to make India worth living in.

Rape – Why is there still no action taken ?

Its amazing to see the number of men protesting against rape. Amazing because now it brings the emotion of surprise that there are in fact men who don’t believe in rape. Isn’t that pathetic ? Whats wrong with this country ? Whats wrong with the bloody government ? Aren’t they supposed to be ‘public servants’ ? It certainly is the other way around. We are their slaves. We have no say. One entire day of protesting, and there is still no politician who has the balls to come out and reassure the public that stern action will be taken. And I know why. Most of the politicians in India already have many rape cases, murder cases against them. So by amending rape laws, they will be screwed you see. We Indians are ruled by rapists and murderers.

Death penalty is given only in the rarest of rarest cases apparently. If death penalty was given in every case of rape, perhaps then our country would be safer and cleaner of the scum that haunt us.

Lathi charge, tear gas, water canons were used today at protestors who just wanted swift action and justice. Why ? What are they, dogs ? The government doesn’t respect the public, why should we respect them ?

Physically castrate those sick beasts who go about raping the youth, who rape even people as old as their mothers or grandmothers. Its sick. From a 2-3 year old girl to a 99 year old women, no one is safe. A female body is what these beasts devour. Physically castrate those disgusting men and leave them to live in shame in imprisonment for atleast 15 years before hanging them at India Gate. Make their hanging public. We want to see them die.

Limitless.

The movie is the same. But in a room of 10 people, each person has understood a different story, along with different perceptions of the characters in it. So when we take this to a macro level, innumerable perceptions arise about the same story. Each perception a gateway to a parallel universe. Incredible, isn’t it. How is it that we can define people then ? We cant. We can attach a certain number of tags, but never limit them with those tags. Each person is a whole universe by himself. Not just of thoughts, but of feelings, of dreams, of his definitions of morality. Every person has a different definition of greatness, of winning, of losing. And it is the same people, who also have unique reasons for what they fight for, or what is worth fighting for. Every human is a whole set of solar systems, galaxies, dying stars, stars being reborn, innumerable happenings of big bangs. Limitless.

Home is important. Like anybody and everybody, I have my own definition of home. Home for me is not just where my family lives, but also my past, my books, a couple of great beautiful moments, my spirituality, and some wonderful people. Home is where all that you love lives. Not just limited to people or living things, but also the non living. Its where you are the most relaxed – not necessarily a physical place, but more a mental state.

What is crucial ? Its the small grains of sand that sit between the big rocks in your jar. Those are the small things that make our lives different, special in its own strange way. The small things that make up a large part of our lives. The way you butter your toast, the way you prefer your eggs, the smell of your room, the yellowing of pages in your oldest books, the smell of monsoon, the smile of your best friend, the panting of your dog, the swift flight of a butterfly that stopped you in your tracks, the small daily achievements – doing those 50 push ups; running for 20 minutes; or perhaps working on your serve. Small things. Every day things. The smile of a stranger when you pass them by, the comfort of your bed, that early morning stretch, sea breeze, the space in your heart where you miss somebody, those puffy white clouds that promote a nice breeze on a hot day, the dew on grass, the first spray of a hot shower. All these tiny, tiny moments that make life perfect the way it is.

Life is made up of so much. There aren’t enough words to describe it all, and even if there were; there aren’t enough pages to write it all on. But I try to. Its a hell lot of fun to recount all that I enjoyed. The smallest ones, very importantly. For its rare that we get a chance to stop to smell the roses. And even more rare to be able to remember what made you happy enough to record them.

 

 

Too much to do, too little time

There is so much to learn. Every step I take, every corner I turn, every place I go to, I am reminded of how much there is to learn. And how much there is to do.

My current muse is Kina Grannis and her official music video of In your arms. Its made up of around 288,000 jelly beans. Yes jelly beans. I was like, ‘how in the world .. that is SO cool .. and yummy .. jelly beeeeeans’.

So all I need to do is put my mind to something I want to do. Anything I’m passionate about. But there is the problem I face most of the times. I’m exploding with ideas, so many many many ideas on what to do with my day. All this because I’m passionate about a lot of things. So here lies my confusion. What do I do with my day ? How many things can I fit into it, and most importantly – finish doing what I started. I generally hop about from one muse to another in a day. Thaaaats .. not such a good thing.

I’m still arguing with myself. Like, right now. I’ve a pile of stuff to go through and filter, old stuff. Dusty stuff. Mostly papers and art materials. And there is also the studying. Good old nagging portion of my brain constantly reminding me of the constantly procrastinated area – a box labelled ‘studies’ that sit in the corner of the attic of my brain.

And then there is all the reading. I really love reading. If it was up to me I would finish 3 books a day. Atleast. No problemo. But I cant do that now. Unfortunately. 15 days for my 6th semester. Time is even more precious now. 

Anyway, there is too much to do. I better get back. Get hoping. To finish. Tasks.

 

Invisibility

That one morning, I just happened to be sitting at the window seat in that tiny plane. My seat also just happened to be located near the propellers of the plane. And I just happened to observe something monumental in my mind, what started as an empty gaze directed towards the airport visible outside the tiny window I was next to – something I involuntarily do once I place my earphones in my ear and turn up the volume to drown out the noise of the engine. Anyway, what I observed as the plane started to move was, the spinning blades of the propeller. At first I could make out each blade, as the spin slowly accelerated to a speed that made each blade almost invisible. So this propeller’s blades were almost invisible, except when a person observing the propeller, pointed out its existence due to its darker shade as a whole, when compared to its background. That’s when it struck me. If a person or an object managed to vibrate at a great speed, perhaps partial/complete invisibility could be achieved. Further more, the extent of invisibility could further be enhanced if this person or object happened to vibrate at a great speed at night.

This window of knowledge that suddenly seemed visible was by itself an ordinary miracle – in my words, a miracle in an ordinary life with ordinary circumstances.

Now, I know that a handful of people already know how to turn invisible using the same rule. Surely this idea by itself isn’t original, though it is an original one in my fresh mind in this lifetime.

And I also know what you may say. You may state that its impossible, as you haven’t met any invisible people. Neither have I. But before you rule the possibility of their existence, let me ask you, even if these people know how to turn invisible, what makes you think they would come and tell you ?